I have NO money to pay bills, NO time for a job, NO clothes and almost no food...
which mixes up to the fact that I have had NO motivation what so ever to go jogging for like almost a month now and the final stage of my animation "Sprinkle me Silly"...
I look and gaze at those people who have gone through this same process and have made it somewhere, but where's my place in all this hey... I know I gotta keep pushing, but at times if feel unreachable.
My dad just arrived back from Chile and speaking to him has helped me understand a few things about me and also re-plan my future as to where I want to go with my career...
At some point I would like to have a studio as big as WETA studios where we provide full preproduction , production and post production. Provide props, concept art, special effects, 3d animation, motion capture, miniatures, costumes, etc...
But before I can do this I need to gain experience and but together some useful knowledge, and for that I need a job at a studio....something!! I have been probably these 3 years asking for an opportunity, but nothing...so what can I do??
After I finish the animation, Im going straight back to paper and flesh out the new script for The Blackberry Monster, put together a team of people interested on working on it (national or international) and make the film, I will also prepare everything to send my animation to festivals (as soon as I gather some money).
And while I do this I will be writting SIN, finally! and register it with the America Writer Guild West...and see how that goes...
Someday I'll have a franchise, seems impossible now but not for the future me I can guarantee it.
At the moment my freelancing is picking up. Slowly but there's something...recently got a job worth quite a bit of money and vey happy I got it but still waiting. I have learned not to be overwhelmed with joy when I get a job, and look at it with skepticism. I have been promised so much stuff that by now I twitch my eye to an opportunity until it becomes real...
Ok so now that I have spewed out all of my worried and frustrations I have nothing else to say...only push and wait...
Ed.
